Everything changes, for the better, for the worse, but sooner or later things do change. For me I will start with the better as there seems to be more of it which makes a change.

1) I've just had my birthday on the 28th this month which was amazing. I may not have really done much on my actual birthday but I had a good time being around family and some friends.

2)I have another driving lesson this Thursday. I had my first driving lesson the Thursday last week and it was amazing. I'd already started driving lessons about a year and a half ago but I hadn't actually driven since then so I was a bit worried that I would be rubbish, but I wasn't. My driving instructor even said that she doesn't think I'll need many more lessons until I'm ready to take my test which I'm ecstatic about. I will have to see what happens with that.

3) On the Thursday morning I'm getting my hair all cut and coloured which is going to look really great. I'm going to be having black on top and red underneath! My mum is paying for it all as a birthday present. Also, on the Friday, I'm getting a manicure which I've never had before as I've never been able to grow my nails that long so this will be very different for me.

4) I have two job interviews on Saturday. One for Icelands and the other for Blockbuster. They're both in Sittingbourne and I really hope I get one of these jobs as it would just be great and I'd actually be able to start saving up some money.

For the worse, there isn't really much which has happened or affected me really but this is basically the things what are on my mind.

1) Apparently my mum doesn't love my dad anymore but doesn't want to do anything about it at the moment. I love my dad to bits and I don't ever want to see him hurt.

2) I'm so scared about my relationship not lasting. We've been so great together lately but that scares me because I don't know if it's all real or not but I guess I will find that out sooner rather than later. It's probably just all in my mind but nothing ever lasts forever with me when I'm happy so that's what scares me.

3) I'm a paranoid wreck. I don't let it affect anyone else anymore but it's still always in my head and I don't know if it will ever go away but I guess that's just from past experiences.

4) I'm always worried I'm not good enough for anyone or anything. I need to sort that out though, otherwise I won't get anywhere in life.

Overall, my life isn't too bad, I've been much more happier than sad as I don't let the bad things get to me unless I'm sitting there on my own and it makes me think about it. I need friends around me really, that's the most important thing to me in life.